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Ok so I couldnt just leave it at wordless wen. I have to much to say ha! Its been 3 weeks now since me and the lil guy have been back at fort drum!:) And I must say I LOVE LOVE LOVE living on post! I now wish the hub would just stay in the army for the sheer fact that I feel so safe on post. Its nuts I have always been paranoid of..well...life in general. I hardly ever would go places alone I had a constant fear of being kidnapped raped or killed. Why? well I ask my self that same question but I am pretty sure it goes back to my mother whom was ooober paraniod herself, and well it kinda rubbed off on me. But here on post I have no fear me and the baby go on walks and do ust about whatever. Im not afraid at night heck I dont even lock the doors. I think the military has it perks for sure and of course it has it downfalls but the benifits out weigh the cons. i want more kids and I just think it would be a blessed life if my children could see other places and not be tied down like I was my whole life. I do miss my hubs though...45 days untill his return I cant belive it has almost been 12 months it has went by pretty quick. With him coming home brings on alot of my own insecuritys. I am worried that hes gonna take one look at this body of mine and be like ok next! But I am sure after being deprived for 12 months anything would be ok to him..:P Welp my poor bulldog had surgery today :( and he is full on medicated...haha I can hardly even get himto move, he has 2 paain patches on and I have to give him pain meds every 6 hours but they say he should be back to his perfect self in 7-10 days :) My house id coming together I only like lil things untill I have it finished for now I need a dresser for the babys room a desh and maybe a rug or 2....*OTS* My hair hmmm...wat to do wat to do..It is longer than it has been in 7 years and I am now coming to realize why I kept it short. It is like asian hair black and silky straight all I can do with this mess is dry and straighten it!:( I am thinking I may cut it all off the week befor hubs gets here so I am lookin cute.. Ok I am rambling now because I am so sleepy I know I need to get myself to bed because its only a matter of time befor my lil guy wakes up to nurse..O yea and today is the 3rd night we CIO and it is working the first night was HORRIBLE he cried for 1 hour and 45 mins, 2nd night he cried for about 10 and tonight he didnt cry YAY!!! O and he is gonn be a chicken for his first halloween :) I am making his costume and I cant wait I got all the supplies today I now just have to find the time to get busy :S